pissed!!

26th august 9:20pm - my evening didnt end so good , i had an appointment at 6pm , then abt 6:45 pm , my owner said she can only make it at 8:30pm , wher i dont think i can wait ... i wanna go home n hv my dinner .... so , i arrange all documents n balance deposit to my client , so tht both party can settle it them self ... there was an agreement between the owner n me tht i will get a certain portion of the deposit as my agent fees , but just now , she twisted her words n said tht she didnt agree on it ... so , ther was some heat argument on the phone ...thts made me more moody heading home .... i feel tht things is getting worse n worse each day ... n its taking a toll on me ... im trying so hard not to get another of my emotional breakdown ( the last i had one was 2 years ago ) ... im controlling my frustration n my tears back but its so hard to do ... im in a situation where i dunno wat the next step to take or to go .... oh god , i wish tht the ' almight' could give some guidance in this ... mayb , just give a small light of happiness ...
mayb, i hv done too many sins in my life , ? so , this is part of my punishment ... i hv been thru so much of hardship , not sure whether i can face another one right now ...
ok , i need to clear my mind ... adios

frust ..... tra.. ted ...

26th august 4:45pm - hmm , another frustrated week wit the real estate thingy ... got no units to rent out ... its been two weeks tht i didnt close any deals ... im getting really pissed abt it ... same o same o... either the tenant is too demanding , or the owners is ... couldnt think of any other ways to solve this ... all my real estate colleagues has no units too .... this is so so bad on my bank statement ... i hate it when the figures in the bank statement is getting smaller n smaller .... mayb , i need to look for a third job ? ... lol , wat am i ? SUPERWOMAN ? ... hell no !!! but anyhow .. i need to find a solution fast , i mean fast!! .. feeling frustrated each week is not good for my health n im already mentally drained out thinking abt it .... i wish my money can b plucks frm the tress ... haha ... wished tht my wishes comes true ... i mean money plucked frm my own backyard .... boy, ! .. i must be going crazy to imagine having trees with lots of money ....
i sometimes envy ppl who dont need to work their ass off and yet , they get to enjoy life n live comfortably .... they r such a lucky ' b*****d .... hmm ... i think i should b grateful wit wat i hv , moral support frm my family n loved one , a home , n a car .... wat more can i ask , right ?
Bloody hell !!! ... i want more ..... !!! i mean more money n less stress ... lol

ok .. i better go back to work now ... all this daydreaming aint helping at all ... wish for all the best for the coming week .... adios

sunday .....

23th august 11:30pm - woke up late this morning , nearly noon ... haha ... wat a way to spend the weekend ... been lazing ard the whole day today ... went out during the noon time , just to ' tapow' so lunch ... hehe ... i didnt fast again , today .... after having some lunch ( nasi kandar ) .. we watched some movies in HBO , then the tv watched us ... haha ... abt 8:30 pm , we went out for some pizza , came back home nearly 10 pm , watch some movie tv ... haha .. now, my man is watching his football , his team is playing ( chelsea ) ... im not a football fan , so i decided to log on - check my emails , check my facebook , now , my blog ..... nothing much happened today , ... just spending another quality time being all by myself n also enjoying my weekend .....sadly , my weekend will b ending soon ... tmrw will b a new week of work work work b4 the long weekend again ... wooo hoo ... i cant wait for tht long weekend ....
ok ... i can hear my bed calling me ... off to get some beauty sleep ... adios ....

22th august 11:05pm - at home , spending quality time wit my new home wit my man ... didnt take the kids this week , i just feel like spending time alone.... woke late this morning , the weather was so gloomy , mmm ,... i like my weekend filled wit gloomy weather ... haha ,i know its weird , but i like it , its makes me feel so lazy ... cooked some lunch , had them wit my man , dropped my man at his office ( he had some work to do ) , then started cleaning my hse ... after done wit the cleaning , we went to the ramadhan bazaar nearby ... the finish part was , when we were there , we didnt know wat to buy or wat to eat ... we end up buying some dishes n came home .... had dinner , lazing ard in front of the tv ...
nothing much interesting happened today , so , i think im gonna continue lazing ard on my couch n watch some more tv ... haha ... adios ....

t.g.i.f

21st august 12:05pm - its been two days i didnt write my blog ... was so busy wit work n my boss was in the office too ... , n as usual in the office when boss ard , its all abt sales, collections n quotations for clients ... it wasnt a pleasant two days - boss is not happy wit the salesman performances , so when tht happens , ther's lots of voice rising .... after office hours ... i had to run n do some of my real estate tingy .... some was good n some was bad ... nearly closed a deal , but suddenly my owner changed her mind .... hmmm ... the things i hv to go thru something ... wat a major stress it was for me ... another stress was going thru the traffic jam , its been raining lately during the evening , especially during the rush hour ....
last nite , i was at my sis place ( im usually there every thursdaynite ) ,just to let my sis know tht im still in one pcs ... haha ... we did some catching up on our weekly report ... haha .... was there till nearly 11pm , till my man called asking wher i am ..lol .. arrive home abt 11:20pm , did some catching up wit my man - asking how was his day .... then , off to bed ...
today , im hoping for a busy day wit my real estate thingy .. i need to close some deals , need to b financial secure for the raya ... ok , gtg ... got some office work to do .. adios ...

tuesday tuesday tuesday

18th august 10:55pm - got back home 55 min ago .. boy, wat a long long day ,was at the office early this morning , boss was on the way to kl frm singapore ,then went online , looking for a product's data sheets ... it was like looking for a needle in a haysack .. lol , cos the model code tht my salesman gave me is not the same as in the webpage ...then , during lunch time , off to get my son frm school .. then , back to office again .. had a viewing appointment at 7:30 in bukit jalil area , n abt tht time , it started to rain heavy , i waiting for the rain to cool down in my car till i fell asleep ...lol.. head home after the viewing , but the road was so bloody jam frm sri petaling till the cheras ( mrr2 ) ........ my knee was so tired n aching at the same time , wat make it worse is feeling hungry the same time ... all i could think of - what to eat , what to eat ? .. lol.. by time i reached ukay perdana ( to pick up my man ) it was nearly 9pm ... so we decided to have dinner near home , onces done wit dinner , immediately head home .. haha...well , both of us is exhausted wit the long day we had ...
im heading to my comfort zone ( my bed ) now ... adios ...

monday monday monday

17th august 2:45pm - back to work after two days of short holiday , i wish it could lasted longer .... i really had a hard time getting up this morning , my room was so cool , it just makes me wanna continue sleepy ... my alarm went on at 8am , n as usual i put on ' snooze ' ... n it went on again after 15 min ... n again i put in on snooze .... hahaha .... by time i really manage to get myself out frm the bed , its was 9:15 am ... made my coffee , had a ciggy , n had a shower .. i only left the hse at 10:15 am ... haha , n i reached the office nearly 11 ... had a call frm my boss , asking me , 'where the hell are u ' ? .. lol ... i told im looking for parking space .... khe khe khe ...
the day has been quiet in the office n also the real estate thingy .... my auditor didnt come into the office cos he is on 2 days medical leave ... so , im all alone ... n for the real estate thingy , i need to wait till month end - to close any deals ... boy, all this waiting really sucks !! ... it looks like it gonna b another slow day for me , i wish its 5pm already , so i can run home , to my home sweet home ... haha
hmm ... got nothing much to write today , i need to find something to do to kill the time ... adios

sunday

16th august 11:24pm - got back home 45 min ago after sending off my man to sport planet in ampang point for his weekly futsal wit his frens . my day started by waking up late this morning , my poor kids had to wait on me , for their morning milo ... haha .. wat can i say , i love to sleep in on weekends . suddenly , i decided to cook lunch today , went to ' giant' at bkt antarabangsa to get my stuffs . while busy cooking , got a call frm my sis who way on the way to Pekan , Pahang to visit her sick mother- in law ,... she wants me to go to her hse , cook n check on her kids . i had to do my ' fast version ' cooking , lol ... made the kids have their shower n eat , then off to my sis' place ...was there till 9pm , send the kids home to my ex ...
tht was how i spent my weekend ... hmm ... how time flies ... i wish the weekend could lasted abit longer ... ok , im off to bed .. tmrw is a new week for me , n my boss will b in town too ... adios

1st day of the weekend

15th august , 11:50pm - didnt get to go into my blog yesterday , was kinda busy with the auditor , trying sort out some creditor's account ... all the calculations n numbers , made my brain all blurred ... then , abt 3:30 pm , i had to rush to sri petaling to handover a unit to my client . The handover was suppose to b at 4pm , suddenly the client said he is already at tht area ... i had to dropped my accounts , n shoot off to the unit ..... i had a really crazy day

this morning ( Saturday morning ) , i was woken up by the prowater delivery guy , to collect the payment for the water bottles tht they hv sent the other .... i didnt expect them to b tht early ( 9:30 am ) to come over ... i was like half awake when i open to the door ... gave them the money , signed the delivery order , n when back to sleep . I thought i could go back to sleep .. well , i couldnt ... this is not my plan to wake up early on my first day of weekend ...

Abt noon time , me n my man got ready to go out for lunch at ampang point ...after lunch , we did some window shopping , while waiting for my ex to sent the kids over . my kids arrive at ampang point abt 3:30 pm ...
we head to JJ keramat to look converse shoes tht my eldest son wanted ... then we did some survey on some electrical appliances .. i thought of replacing my fridge n tv .. i havent really decided to take them or not ...haha .. thts is kinda normal for me ( to make up my mind ) , especially when the things i think isnt tht important ...
Abt 6pm , we headed to my sis' place .. we usually go the during the weekends , i want my kids to mingle wit their anty , uncle n their cousin .... wat can i say ... i hv strong family values in me n i want my kids to hv tht too ... while we were ther , as usual , me n my man had some challenge of pool ... n as usual , i lost .. , luckily for him , im not a sore loser ... hahah
N abt 9pm , we went to ukay perdana for dinner , after dinner , we head home ... it feels so good to b home ...
Ok , its past midnite , im off to bed ... .. adios ...

back to work

13th august - 5pm : yesterday , i worked half day .. had this terrible ache below my tummy area ... my poor auditor came into the office n had to leave at 1pm , cos i wanted to go home ... brought lunch for my man , he was home too , had his ' migrane ' attack . my god ! when tht happens , all he does he sleep n sleep ... yesterday evening was raining heavily at my area , so it was nice to hv a ' cat' nap ... wat a nap .. frm 5:30 till 7:30 ... n during the nite , i went to my usual massage lady to get me some massage ... when she started to massage my tummy area , oh damn! it was so bloody painful ... i was tossing n turning on the bed .. till i had to scream 'stop' ... lol ... luckily , i didnt kicked her ( she might fly n hit the wall ) .. after all the suffering massage , the body feels lighter than usual ( after few burps n farts ... hahaha ) . came home , had some MCD , took a shower , n watched some tv , then the tv watched me ... hahah
this morning , reached the office abt 10:25am ... got ready all the paperwork for my auditor ... as usual , had some misunderstand wit boss over the figures on the collections / payment , n also on the closing accts ( this happens every year during the year end financial closing ) ... work on the real estate been quiet the past few days , n i hate it ... i hate the idea of no running abt wit not showing units , no hand over keys , n no deals to b closed ... its making me feel more frustrated even more each day ... hopefully , tmrw will b a good day ...
today's weather is kinda gloomy , wish i was at home now ... cuddle under the blankie in my bed .. but no worries , i hv another one hour to go , n another half an hour going thru the traffic b4 reaching home- to my home sweet home , wit my fishes greeting me wit its mouth open .. haha , n my fat cat who is constantly asking for food ( she only comes home when she is hungry ) n only eat fresh cat food- tht fat BITCH .. haha ...

thts all for today , wish tmrw will b an interesting day .. adios ...

its only tuesday

11th august - 1:30pm - in the office , has been in the office since 10:30 . its was so hard to wake up this morning , dunno y ... i think im getting the ' lazy' syndrome ... haha . it looks like its gonna b another boring day long day ... my auditor didnt come in today , he called n said tht he is on M.C ( medical leave ) , so im all alone in the office ... this morning , the Internet connections really sucks!! ... cant get into my blog , facebook n my yahoo mail ... feels like wanna kick the cpu , but cant ... it belongs to the company ... my mood is kinda 'off' today ... been getting this feeling the passed two days now , i wonder y ... i feel like wanna stay at home n ' hibernate ' for the whole week or month or year ... lol .. hmmm, wat ? whole month / year ? .. i must b crazy ... who will pay the bills ? ... i gotta ' brush ' off this stupid ideas in my head ... living this way .. i either die of starvation or boredom , or both ... isk isk isk ... dying tht way is not good at all ... dying doing something is better than dying doing nothing ... kha kha ... its lunch time , n i dunno wat to eat .... same o same o food at this coffee shop ( besides the office ) ... ok , im feeling mentally bored now , i need to find something to do ... adios ..


moral story of the day - BRUSH OFF the negative thoughts in ur head ... !!! be happy n be grateful wit wat u hv !!!

here comes the new week of work

10th august -5pm : in the office , its raining , n my auditor is here again doing the closing year end account for the company ... there's nothing much to do in the office n also the real estate thingy ,lately , im feeling really frustrated wit the real estate , cant reached the target i wanted for this month ... when this happens , i intend to get mentally bored n frustrated ... n when tht happens ... i end up at the salon cutting my hair short or make some changes on my appearance's .. lol ... n tht scares my man . so far , the boredom is still under control ... haha ... hope i manage to keep it tht way ....
boss wont b coming to kl this week , n tht's good ... i cant b feeling frustrated n get ' nagging abt the salesman when im in the office ... when this happens , me n my boss ends up arguing out loud abt it ... n thts not good at all ...
office work will b finishing soon , i hv a viewing at 6pm at the sri petaling , im not sure whether im up to it , besides , its raining , i know i end up waiting for the client ...n i hate to wait .. if i dont do this viewing , i might not know whether i get to close the deal or not ? .. so , i think i better just show them the place ... tht way i will know the outcome ... sigh, come to think of it , i know sure whether they hv the budget for it or they just wanna view the place for the ' fun' of it .... hmm ... all this ' thoughts ' in my head ... i better cancel the viewing ...or not .... ? aiyoo , female's mind is really complicated la ... haha
hmm .. tht all for today .. my mind just went ' blank ' ...

the moral story of the day is - blank ... hahahaha

sunday morning

9th august - 12:15pm : its sunday again ... how time flies .... didnt manage to write anything on my blog yesterday ... had another busy day , woke up late on saturday , did some house cleaning , then off to have lunch wit my man in ukay perdana , then pick up my laundry , as usual , my man forget how many bags tht we hv sent to the laundry , can u believe it , ther was 5 bags of laundry , n i wonder y i got no clothes to wear for work .. lol . then me n my man went to pick up my kids frm sri petaling ( they stays wit my ex during the weekdays cos their school is nearby ) , after tht we decided to go to JJ keramat to get something to eat ... while looking for a parking lot , we saw JOHNNY'S ( steamboat restaurant ) , the thinking of having junkfood in our mind has disappeared .. haha ... all we could think of the delicious hot soup n the stuffs in the soup ... haha ... the way we ate ... hmm .. like ther 's wont b any steamboat in near future ... lol . one thing i must confess is , having a meal wit my man n my eldest son , who loves food , u intend to appreciate the food more , no matter wher or wat ... n it worth every dine / cents / ringgit .. haha .
after a good meal at JOHNNY'S , we went to my sis' place .. its like a weekly routine , i want my kids to spend some time wit their cousins , their aunt n uncle . i want them to understand the family values , want them to know how important family members are to them . stayed ther till nearly 2 am , playing pool wit my man ( lost to him 7-6 , i was the 6 , lol ) .

ok ... its nearly 1 pm .. need to get ready for lunch ... too lazy to cook , so decided to take my loved one out for lunch ... bye , signing out ...

thank god its friday

7th august -4pm : phewww .... back in the office , after a long day doing my real estate thingy .... been really busy wit viewing the past two day . i didnt even had time to log on to my facebook yesterday , i was running abt like headless chicken between sri petaling n desa petaling .... this morning he company's auditor came to do the company' s year end closing , i hope we made profit , if not ... boss will b nagging at us till next year ! lol ... n during lunch time , as usual , my daily rountine ( mon - friday ) , pick up my son frm school n try to squeeze in my real estate thingy too ... i had to give my auditor the office entrance password ... no worries , i trust him ... besides , i dont think he wanna carried the transformers out ... my god , tht damn transformers is so damn heavy . the auditor looks like a decent guy ... been doing our audit the past four years now ... n he has met my boss ... dont think the auditor wanna mess wit my boss ... hahaha
next week , my boss will up in kl office ... aiyoo .. pengsan la i ... no blogging , no chats , no facebook ....

ok .. gtg now ... boss on skype chatting me me ...

bye bye

oh yes , today , i dont hv any of ' the moral of the story ' thingy ... hahaha ... mayb , tmrw ...

a long long day

5th august - 9:20pm : just got back home ( abt 30 min ago ) ... its been a long day at work for me , especially on the real estate thingy . i met lots of odd , funny characters clients today ., some was easy clients to handle n some is so demanding clients . the demanding clients wants low rental but wants everything in the unit ... wher can la ...????.. but after going thru all the viewing , i manage to close a deal n it felt great . didnt spend much time in the office today ... i pity my boss , cos i know he is not happy abt it n yet dont want to scream at me abt it too, ... my boss knows tht i do real estate too b4 joining the company , we had some agreement abt me holding two jobs , as long i dont ' slack' on my office duties . so , i stayed back in the office till 6:30 pm ( feeling guilty la ) . after office , as usual , head to ukay perdana to pick up my man n had some dinner at ampang point , then off to taman melawati to do some banking . after banking , we head home , to our ' love shack ' ... hahaha ... its feels so much better when u reach to a cosy , well decorated home ... haha . n onces at home , the usual routine is feed the cat n the fishes , then off being a couch potato n watched tv till our eyes cant open no more ... haha ...

thats all for now .. its time for me to spend some quality time wit my man ...

the moral of the day - stick to ur "gun" when u r hired to do something ... either u win some or u dont ... end of the day , a job is a job ...

bye bye

sakit jiwa day

4 august -11:30am - in the office , started the day feeling moody , n it all started last nite ... having late nite call frm a difficult tenant ( my real estate job thingy ) , telling me he is not happy wit his new hsemate n wanna move out as soon as possible . who do he think he is ? PM son? move out whenever he wants ? i told him tht i dont take this last 'min notice' crap , so he has waits till month end to move out n offset his one month security deposit ... n this morning , my owner told me tht she gave me a wrong account no: where i already online transfered a client's deposit ... sometimes , i wonder how can some owners can b so irresponsiable ... cant she let me know onces she get a msg frm the bank ? ( she waited till next morning to inform me tht i hv banked into a wrong acct ) now , i need to go to the bank n sort this out .. wat a troublesome thing to do ... sakit jiwa betul la this owner , in English version = making me mentally insane / hurt sick .....

im glad tht the office is running smoothly ,so far there's no hiccups here n there . hope it will last like this till end of the day ...

one thing for sure , there will b lots of running abt like a headless chicken during lunch time .. meeting up clients n owner to confirm some deals in my real estate ... pray to god tht everything will turn out the way i planned it to b ...

moral of the story for the day - never deal wit problematic tenants , n double check wit owners on their msgs to u ... lol

monday monday monday

3 august 2:30pm - oh boy , only now i hv the time to write in my blog ... wat a long day i had ... b4 i start writing abt my day ... let me tell u abt my weekend ... it was good , i get to spend my time wit my kids n my man the same time ... i wish the weekend would lasted abit longer ... lol ... two days isnt enough when u r having fun n being lazy ... hehehe .... btw , i usually dont log on during the weekends , if u see the date of blogs , its usually weekday .... :)

today , my day started , as usual , having a hard time getting up for work ... keep putting my alarm on ' snooze ' ..lol , but waking up wit my best fren ( a cup of coffee n a criggy ) , i already for a shower n getting dressed for work . i must say , i give my upmost respect to the person who created ' coffee' .. tht person is such a brilliant person ... hehehe

i reached the office at 10: 30am ( work starts at 10am ) , on my pc , connect my internet , less then ten min , boss was on the skype , nagging at me ... hehehe . its ok , cos salesman got nagged too ( balanced up the work pressure ) . and during lunch time , had to run off to get my kids frm school n manage to squeeze in some real estate work -manage to close a deal , boy , am i proud of myself .... ok .. looks like i need to go back to my office work , boss wants me to send out emails ... tc .. will b back soon

moral story of the day - dont take alarm clock for granted .. kha kha ...